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Thursday, September 10, 2009

What's New??

So what's new with all of you?? Hope everything is well!
I've been off work recently and I'm dreading going back....I'm not sure if I'm ready.

So, I didn't enroll for school this semester because my lease isn't up until the end of September and Allstate wont let me work part time. So I'll be enrolling next semester :)
I was supposed to move in with my parents for 3 months but hey,....I just couldn't. I got so stressed out about it and I've been told to reconsider...So I did. I'm a horrible decision maker. I've made all these "smart" decisions that has had me compromise my quality of life. I can't make the decisions that are healthy for me - The ones where I'm not draining myself and making myself go crazy. I've always been this way because I've been taught to make others happy. I mean, when I've tried to make good decisions for myself, I have had to face the consequence of my parents reaction. My mom, up until recently, would get upset if I showed that I could not live with her and my stepfather or that I couldn't take her advice or if I was distancing myself from her. I say up until recently because lately she's been concerned. The last two times I've freaked out it's been over a fight that's we have had. She's kind of gotten to the point where she doesn't care about what the decision is as long as I'm in a healthy place that I want to be in. So when I told her I didn't think I could handle moving back, she was okay with it.. That scared me honestly and I started crying on the phone because I was scared that once I moved in with someone else (most likely Jake's parents) then she would start being moody and upset. She said she wouldn't and understood that I felt this way because that's how she normally reacts. So she really wants me to just be better. That's a huge relief. When I was told to reconsider living with them, I started having anxiety attacks because I didn't think I could tell my mom.

Are you like that? Always trying to please others and not knowing how to do things for yourself?
I would have told you before that I do things for myself, because I do. I buy things for myself and do what I want for the most part. Put when it comes to doing what my parents or family want me to do, I do whatever so I don't have to deal with them being upset.

Jake found an article about a interview with Chris Brown....it's pretty bad. I mean, this guy acts like he just broke Rihanna's bicycle. I know he says that he has problems with violence towards women because his parents were a role model for him, but that's no excuse. If you know you have a problem, then get help. You are constantly making your own decisions and no one made him hit Rihanna! I mean we all have our problems because of our parents but when it comes down to it, no one makes us do the screwed up things we do. I also don't understand how Chris thinks going around pretending like it's not that big of a deal is helping him any. It is a big deal. You're a celebrity, and everyone is watching you. Normal people face serious jail time over this stuff. Domestic abuse is not pretty and no one is a fan. Who is Chris's publicists? I sometimes wonder if he has one. The best response would have been to deeply apologize and pretend like he means it and then give some community time and money to domestic abuse awareness.
Here's the article: http://www.avclub.com/articles/the-chris-brown-interview-that-will-give-you-enoug,32546/

Tell me what you think.

Hey Shirley! I hope everything is well. Please update the blog about your trip! With pictures!!

Holly

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Oct 30
Enjoys Traveling, Reading, Writing, Teaching at church, Psychology, Starbucks, Sushi and Noodles.

``I like trying new things, as long as I'm with friends.
I have my ups and downs and i'm not perfect-I'm just trying to figure things out. I hope you can understand. :)

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June 18
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``I'm random and always up for a good laugh. I like comfortable silences, knowing someone so well that you don't have to speak. I find intelligence hot and strong personalities even more. Dislike being confined.