Thursday, April 16, 2009
Not so Jobless
My photo in case you forgot my face. :)
Shirley! I'm almost in the same boat. I have been actively searching for jobs and I feel the same way....who will look at my resume? What can I do to make sure it has been reviewed. I was lucky with one as a friend works in the hospital that I applied to. She gave me the name of someone in the department I was applying too. So I called and made sure they looked me over. The HR lady said she would send to the manager....and I haven't heard back since. :( A job I really really wanted.
So the doctor upped my medicine to 450 mg and that seems to be working. Better at least. With borderline medicine can only do so much. My mood swings are still there but I'm not depressed and when I start to go over the deep end on a mood swing, I don't go as far. I'm taking Seroquel, it's a major tranquilizer and makes me sleep very deeply....so I'm very well rested in the morning! Only thing is I have a hard time waking up in the morning. Hahahahah If I take it too late I will sleep through my alarm going off for ten minutes!!! So I have to be on time with the medicine which helps me to take it everyday..if it didn't matter what time I would keep on putting it off and eventually forget.
I have to say I have been really frustrated with the doctor because I want to be sure that I don't have something else going on other than BPD....I know i am borderline, but a lot of times people with bpd have other medical problems as well like bipolar and other stuff...When I try to bring up how I have felt in the past, they don't want to do that. I go frustrated and cried in the doctor's office because she acted like the past didn't matter. I told her it mattered to me. Being bpd makes me overreact to things so of course I overreacted to that situation.
School is a few weeks away from being over and I'm worried about my grades....Honestly I haven't really studied for anything.
Okay...off to work :(
-Holly
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