Thursday, April 16, 2009
Not so Jobless
My photo in case you forgot my face. :)
Shirley! I'm almost in the same boat. I have been actively searching for jobs and I feel the same way....who will look at my resume? What can I do to make sure it has been reviewed. I was lucky with one as a friend works in the hospital that I applied to. She gave me the name of someone in the department I was applying too. So I called and made sure they looked me over. The HR lady said she would send to the manager....and I haven't heard back since. :( A job I really really wanted.
So the doctor upped my medicine to 450 mg and that seems to be working. Better at least. With borderline medicine can only do so much. My mood swings are still there but I'm not depressed and when I start to go over the deep end on a mood swing, I don't go as far. I'm taking Seroquel, it's a major tranquilizer and makes me sleep very deeply....so I'm very well rested in the morning! Only thing is I have a hard time waking up in the morning. Hahahahah If I take it too late I will sleep through my alarm going off for ten minutes!!! So I have to be on time with the medicine which helps me to take it everyday..if it didn't matter what time I would keep on putting it off and eventually forget.
I have to say I have been really frustrated with the doctor because I want to be sure that I don't have something else going on other than BPD....I know i am borderline, but a lot of times people with bpd have other medical problems as well like bipolar and other stuff...When I try to bring up how I have felt in the past, they don't want to do that. I go frustrated and cried in the doctor's office because she acted like the past didn't matter. I told her it mattered to me. Being bpd makes me overreact to things so of course I overreacted to that situation.
School is a few weeks away from being over and I'm worried about my grades....Honestly I haven't really studied for anything.
Okay...off to work :(
-Holly
Best Friends Ever8:16 AM
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Major quarter life crisis
I hate to end up trapped in a miserable job. I quited my day job before finding a permanent job. I had actually been working at Walton as a land banker where I market and advise clients on several investment opportunities and assisted them in the process. BUT, both Cold and Warm Calling didn't work out very well and with a 40k-in-3-weeks-target given to me, def gave me a lot of stress in getting potential clients. And yeah, I told my manager and I'm thankful he accepted my resignation. Still, it would be another experience...
So now...
I, during a recession, am looking for another job. I got a phone call today and right now, that feels like the highlight of my day right now. I also got a call about continuing my education. That was a long call and I wanted to roll my eyes several times (why I didn't, I don't know.. I mean, it was a phone call) The woman was trying to push me into starting online classes in a couple of weeks (uh, no).
Well, I've started the serious job hunt. I've been looking around a little here and there, sending in the odd resume with some effort, but not much follow up. Had an interview yesterday that went pretty well, but not about to put all my eggs in one basket yet..
Was wondering how many jobs will I apply to before I get an interview invitation? How many of my resumes will be stucked in the HR inbox, never to be seen or heard from again? And the most frightening question of all, how long will it take for me to get a job? Only time will tell.. Getting a job is like winning the lottery. Anyway I have 2 job interviews tmr! Hooray! And another one scheduled for friday at 1.15 p.m. .
My quest to break into the marketing industry seems to be much more difficult than I had hoped. So, I'm re-evaluating a little bit. Perhaps Engineering? Gah! Job hunting is a headache. I have also tweaked my resume today. Hopefully that helps a little.
As dangerous as it is to hope like this, I will be checking my email like crazy and my heart will skip a beat every time the phone rings. Will tomorrow be the day? Wish me luck against all the local talents. haha. Anyway I'll be working for the rest of my life so taking things a little slow now isn't a bad idea :D
Alright, so rant over.
And Holly! I hope you are fine and hopefully the med is working. How's school and work going? hey seriously I can’t wait to talk to you again! We've missed each other for like a week or so. So here's two awesome cute little GREENIES to make you smile :)
Yes, I bought these two active little tortoises today! Tortoises are cool cos' they get to chill out all day, eat lettuce, and walk really slowly everywhere and enjoy their life off. So lucky. Plus they get to live a long life. haha.
The pretty new Moleskine that Holly gave me is still wrapped up nicely untouched. I keep thinking about things I could do with it, but when it actually comes down to writing the first alphabet or pasting the first cut out picture, it's so hard because I'm afraid I might do something I don't like and regret it later. Weird huh. haha.
I'm feeling a bit more positive today.
Here I sit with no intention of doing anything. This is just a bunch of random words and pictures that I can say, brighten my day.
-Shirley
Best Friends Ever5:18 AM