Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Swim!
Today was fun.. Well sort of.. it was boring for a while and the pool was warmer today it was realy cool! So i went swimming with a friend today. I have been wanting to hit the pool ever since the start of work, trying to get rid of the aches and pains accumulated from work. Its been 5 months since i last get into the water. I thought I would end up getting out of the pool early. But I swam 40 laps today! And I did it with all smiles! haha that was like, Wow.
Swimming let my mind wanders, my head pounds, and my body works. Its weightless and cool. Nothing compares to a lap in the pool. And so I swam a couple of my laps on my back, just working on my kicking, so that I could keep my face out of the water to breath constantly. We went to the slides and the lazy pool too. Then, We picked up dinner on the way home from the pool and then bought a new swim cap.
Next.
My part time job at the baby fair is a soul-sucking, spirit-crushing boredom festival. I have to be chained to the baby products, eight hours a day. It’s like a huge chunk of my life gone, and if my boss suddenly turns into a monster (among other possible worst case scenarios), it can really cast an ugly pallor on everything else. Okay i shall not complain too much. 11 more days to the end of my job. :D
Now...
They all want me to get a good job like from locally (after graduation). But I could never live an average life like that; it will kill me. I'm not made to sit in a shop or an office all day. My mind is always on my stories, thinking about new ones, dreaming about what’s happening next. The life attracts me so much, I just cant seem to tell my family, I think i'm scared of disappointing them.
I just feel like moving to somewhere else (like the states), straight out of school to learn about the real world and build a business. Or maybe I should find a full time job and save up some money first.
This is exactly the stage I’m in right now; Seriously.
I have no idea where my life is going.
While I’m figuring things out, I'm going to use some of this “off time” to plan what I’ve been always want to do... I also plan on volunteering at a local organization and getting involved in the community; I need to build my soul back up, and volunteering is a good way to do it. I feel like taking some random classes and play guitar too.
But above everything else, i just wish i could pack a bag and hit the road until I make up my mind.
I am DECOMPOSING soon. (if i carry on not deciding what to do with my life.)
I realize how pathetic I sound. :( And I'm extremely nervous of getting back my results this friday. Pls pray for me... and GOOD LUCK TO ME!!!
“Is life not a thousand times too short for us to bore ourselves?” — Friedrich Nietzsche
how are you holly? did the medicine work? what are you up to? Let me know whats going on in your life!
Take care everyone!
and HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!
-Shirley
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