Anyone know who this was painted by? I'll admit, I have seen it before but totally forgot. I was searching for a picture of sunflowers because my friend couldn't send me the pics we had taken of a sunflower field we had been too. It was a small, small field but very beautiful. I love fields like that where it engulfs you and the field becomes your playground. :) I love it. Of course I was brought up, 5th-8th, on a farm. I miss having all of that land to explore and be away from the busyness of people. I miss it a lot.
This painting was done by Vincent Van Gogh.
So my first day of school was very interesting (to me). My first class was Art Appreciation. I was expecting another teacher, a girl, but instead found a man sitting in the teachers chair. I mean I had signed up for this class before and ended up dropping it. It was in the same room but another teacher. I wander what happend. hmm... Anyway. The proffessor was funny. He is very sarcastic and has a bit of dry sense of humore here and there. I tend to have a dry sense of humor myself so this was very entertaining. :) He made fun of a few kids like their shoes or the polar bear on a kids had (which was actually an elephant). He didn't mean anything by it, I know, since he only wanted everyone to see the humor in it. Or maybe he just wanted to be funny. Whatever it was, it was entertaining at least. Hahahahahahaha! oh! He taught the class about where the work lesbians came from and also where the word pornography came from. Greek of course, but I did not know that lesbos was an island and it's inhabitants were known as lesbians. I also did not know that Porne with an accent over the e means prostitute and then of course praph means photo....which is how the work pornography came about. I find it so funny and wierd that our ART teacher would teach us these specific words on the first day. He seems to have a facination with words and their origins. He also told us of the city names in Alabama that are names of minerals. haha
Something else. We have two Vietnamese students in our art class. He asked one to say something in her language but she declined. The other, who seemed to be more comfortable with English obliged. hahahaha! The teacher asked him to call him names in Vietnamese. He came out with this whole senario where the teacher owes him money over a pool game. He tells him to say, "Give me my money, you are a fat pig" hahaha and he said it. This teacher is strange but very funny. Hopefully I will feel the same about him all year.
My next class was Precalculus. I was glad to see a friend of mine who had math at the same time as me, though not the same class. Me and math don't get along but I like the struggle sometimes. Though this times we are already starting off on a bad note. This class starts with the things I struggled with from the last few years of math....factoring. I don't think I would have struggled with it if it wasn't for the fact that I moved schools and the school I moved to had already covered it. Their lesson plan was different from the school I came from. The blew. blah. Ever since I haven't really gotten it and everyone else seems to have caught on nicely. Enough about factoring. My teacher was interesting in there as well. He was entertaining in the way he was very energetic. This may not help how slow I am with math. He would say, "okay, okay, here we go", all energetic like and then begin some math problem.
So, about the sunflowers. Me and a friend of mine went through some hard times. She was upset one night and I didn't know what to say. I didn't have anything to say and I was too focused on just listening. So I wasn't much help in her delima. She texted me few days ago, which was a week or two after, and said she was a bad friend and she was sorry. I said I was as well and then we hung out later that week.. Funny how things work out. Earlier on this year, around halloween, we went to a pumpkin patch which also had a very small sunflower field. We went over into the field and took pictures and explore. (I would love to go back.) Well, my friend wanted cake and so took this reunion as an opportunity to buy some. So she picked out a cake from Edgars that had sunflowers on it and had them put "to second chances" on it. Hahaha, I have to say that I didn't know what to think. I didn't know I had skrewed up that bad or that she did. I'm going to with she just wanted a reason to have cake. :) Edgars cake is very good. AND she had gotten chocolate cake.. Yum Yum. Thank you friend!
So I had went to Counciling on Wednesday. Did I blog about that last time? No I guess I didn't since I had to go to bed early for school. Well, I had to buy a teddy bear for myself. I don't know what to do with a teddy bear. I forgot to ask her. She said that I need to connect with my inner child. She showed me, by drawing it, that because I wont let myself feel pain it is also hard for me to feel joy. Then she showed me that people have three parts to them. The parent, the adult, and the child. In that order. Now the child always wants things when they want them and doesn't think anything through. The parent is always trying to get on to the child and so there is conflict. Which is were the adult comes in aparently. The adult reasons them and mediates. I am more adult than child or parent and I am more parent than I am child. Does that make sense? So I don't allow myself to have the joy like a child does....which is the reason for the teddy bear I guess? I forgot what she told me to use it for. Maybe I could sleep with it? hahahaha!
It's Saturday night. I had to work today. :( boooo. My boyfriend and a friend are watching a video game. My boyfriend had me come over to play too....it's really cute and fun but I got bored with it I guess. Ha, my boyfriend's mother also played for a bit. She gets into video games....I wish I could. I wonder why I don't care so much or find them boring. They have a lot of imagination but I guess I prefer to read because I am doing all of the imagining. Hmmm.....Well now it's me and the computer while they play.
Shirley? You had a bad day? I'm sorry....I know what it's like to feel like people put it off on you to do all the work. I don't know exactly what the situation was. A lot of the time I end up being okay with it because I like to be able to control how it's being done since I tend to be a perfectionist. ha. But I hope today was better for you. There is always tomorrow. A
And thanks for being there. :) To be honest I'm the type of person to open up unless I somehow got to where I had no choice. I hide my feelings and when I talk about what is going on or how I am hurting I detatch emotion from it and people think that I'm not hurting as bad. Other people have seen me do this. I will keep in mind that you are there and I'm glad that you are. :) Thanks. I want to be there for you too if anything arises.
Well, I will not let the next blog be so far away as this one was. (if that makes sense)
Until then!
-Holly