Saturday, January 31, 2009
Random thoughts on a random night
Just now was massive. It was so crazy and yet awesome. Yeah but seriously.. we were so far yet so near, it was insane. I seriously hate the distance. We ended up staying at home doing facial masks.I love facial masks, I don’t care if they are hydrating, whitening or anything , full of brainless things I could tell you if you got me really high cos I really love masks. Especially because they are so relaxing and I love the after effect.
Its even better to mask it up with your bestie. :)
So, my brain is FULL of thoughts, like really random things.
I need to get a job soon. a permanent one.
I feel like eating prata, soaked in curry.
Exams are coming. It just gave me a MASSIVE headache. I detest/cannot stand exams. Can’t wait for the next one month to pass, so I’ll be free. 26 more days.
My afternoon naps are making me an owl. I just love naps dont ask me why.
I really want to watch more movies. really.
I don’t think I’ve told alot of people this, but past midnight to dawn is my favorite time of the day. The whole world is asleep (except me of course) its chilly outside and its so peaceful. Its like everyone is actually shutting up and that’s what makes the silence so special. It all ends at 5+am though, that’s the time my grandmother wakes up.
If you know me long enough, I have a peculiar inability to count time backwards. I knew that my quiz starts at 1 p.m., yet I left my house at 12.20 p.m. thinking that I was perfectly on time. The journey to school takes about an hour, and for examinations, I usually make sure I leave the house 1.5 hours before the paper starts. But this time, I only realised how late I was when I arrived at the train station at 12.50 p.m., and was so stressed out while trying to hail a cab. I swear all my white hair grew out, fell out, and grew back out again during those moments before I finally arrived at the exam hall.
This incident also reminded me about another time I was like an hour late for an exam last semester, and strolled in like I was just on time. Stanley and Xinyi were like, "Hey I thought you weren't coming," then "What the hell !" when I told them I thought I was on time. HAHA.
I am always late. always. or like most of the time.
Life hasn’t been as carefree as i’ve wanted it to be. And there’s a nagging feeling that its gonna stay like this for a while until i’m certain of my future after i grad. Or maybe, its going to stay like that until i grow old. There’s a deep need to connect, but there’s no one close enough. the friends i hang out with are a bunch of fun loving people and they bring lots of joy and laughter into my life, but still it feels like something is missing. Can you hear me? why can’t i get close enough? I’m tired and sleep wouldn’t fix it.
And my wanderlust has not been satisfied. I really just want to pack up and travel around the world with my camera, books and money. I'd travel by train and maybe look up some friends. Think i might have to do it one day. :)
Lesson with holly later;and a site visit report to go.
-Shirley
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